faith.hope.love

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

my wish for everyone on this planet:
gong xi fa cai, tian tian kai xin.

oh wells. the chinese new year's not bringing any good luck. yea yea ok i wont say so much bu ji li stuff now. on saturday, guess what happened.

my dad was queing for car wash then i decided to get something from the mart. when i came back into the car halfway, my dad released the brake. being automatic, the car glided forward, "giapping" my leg. i was like "STOP! STOP! REVERSE!" cos i didn seem to be able to pull out my leg. then the car glided forward once more, compressing even more before the car reversed. sigh, lucky there were no crack sounds of my bones, But hell, its real painful now.

that was saturday. on sunday came all the visitation. boring. the only best part was seeing all my long lost cousins. somehow i really miss them. forget the red packs, i just wanna be happy. but i guess happiness cannot be given in red packets.

then came monday. oh what?! todays' tuesday? i hate the sound of that. monday was boring as usual. slept the whole morning, then went to my aunts place for lunch. then went to frend's house and is staying over now. omgosh what kinda english is that.

anyways i just watched the 0120hrs "i not stupid" show at ps. not bad. really, my parents should watch it, and also to all those parents who just bitch and nag everyday: watch that show and wake up your bloody ideas! ..before your kids go rob and commit crimes. haha i doubt my dad will ever read my blog and cry. haha.

and there's natallie, you're so pretty! :) haha dont worry i believe you can improve 10 marks! guess what i ate. choc brownie and peanut buttercup! yummy

no mood to sleep. the thought of teachers ranting in school, parents nagging at home just keeps me awake, but inhibiting from doing any work.

a few quotes i picked out and have been pondering over these days:

- can caning really change a kid's character? or it'll just make it worse?
- whats the difference between unstoppable and difficult to stop?
- you need to find the key to a person's heart to win him/her over
- focus the talents rather than weaknesses and use them to your advantage

- only when you've lost that person, you'll never treasure that someone as much
- dont underestimate the power of these 3 words. "i love you"

and this one's from mother theresa:
"I have found the paradox that if i love until it hurts, then there is no more hurt, but only more love"
like wow. i salute you mother!

this is a long post. but i seriously dont feel like doing any work. really. sign me up for the next war. why cant i just wake up tommorow in paradise?

shouts:
everyone: HAPPY new year
luddy: relax, if i ever find the bugger, ill make him crumpler(v)
funoramappl: oh well. keep up the good work
gen: haha, i find it hard to laugh on my own as well, glad to have you guys laugh with me :)
jonas: hey bro, thanks for filling my tagboards
vishnu: dont worry so much bout a***** or that person, you're special!
tay, mai: you lovely! i write letter to you soon
mat brudder and indian president: PEACE!!!
bestfriend(yb): get well soon too!
natallie: hope to see you soon :)
yongzhi: thanks for the songs
anyone in need: i love (agape) you

"forget A level today, at least for one day, four days holiday, good luck coming your way"
you can say that again. and again.

sam made noise at
8:05 PM

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

i wish i could sing this to you. a song written by my brother yongzhi. i really am sad today.

Call me up on Friday night
Leave me waiting there for you
For someone who's always there
For the one that never comes
Cos it's you that comes to mind
You're the first one that I find
A long time after darkness falls
I'm still waiting for your call

Chorus:
I wait for your voice in the dead of the dawn
So won't you sing me to sleep,
me to sleep, me to sleep
I barely realise I've come to depend on you
Your call is all that I need, that I need,
that I need, that I need

Please don't leave me hanging here
After growing so on me
You break off a piece of me
Pieces no one ever sees

I always miss the ice-cream truck
I have always cursed my luck
When it seems to be my turn
It's just the point of no return

All rights reserved
Barely Justified

dont wanna talk. i get it. i understand. i regret. im tired. find rest, my soul.

anybody know when's the next war? sign me up.

I wait for your voice in the dead of the dawn.

sam made noise at
2:05 PM

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Friday, January 27, 2006

haha today was a funny day, i better blog bout it before i forget.

just yesterday i skipped training to finish up all my owed homework. sigh i think coming home and sleeping strait ain't a good idea. so forced myself to sit down in the dumb voiddeck to finish my article report and essay. was doing with gen and evan, so as usual we tkss and the funniest thing of that day happened.

gen: whats that in your pencil case?
evan: oh they're little aeroplanes (colourful plastic planes)
me: why do you bring so many to school?
evan: oh, its my "visual reminder", reminds me to be as high as the sky.
me and gen: *laughter for 5 minutes.

then came today. i learnt of a new sport. its called "PK-ing". hae sung described it as
1. people jumping over walls
2. people swinging on overhead bridges
3. people swinging out of HDB estates to the other floors
4. people breakdancing when theres music
gosh, the 6 of us at subway were just laughing our asses off. i just researched on it. I CANT BELIEVE I EVEN DID IT! gosh i typed PK-ing - Player killing, Peking, etc; nothing about people doing fear factor stunts. anyways we also did something funny there, not gonna blog bout it. may encourage bias and prejudice.

then in the afternoon, the singapore team beat the hong kong team in the world badminton championship finals! whoohoo! i never laughed so much at badminton in my life. sandy playing with her left hand and swinging her right around. and theres lai shan dazing bout muraly the whole time, and jamie just smashing the shuttle into people's faces. haha how funny. went to play netball and run also. man the netties are strong! keep it up kah yi, gaby, sandy, nana, angela, mg gurl, laishan. oops leave out the last name.

haha! to laishan: seriosly if you like basketball, go join it. first the school team, then nationals, then the NBA, yea.

yawn. gong xi fa cai.

sam made noise at
6:29 PM

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

hi. haha. i didn even think anyone would even read my blog. sigh, i really think that blogs have objectives which are subjective. gosh. too much GP. voyeurism? nah nothing exciting here anyway.

well, things been piling up. LIKE PILING UP! theres just SO MUCH WORK TO DO! i need to scream. life's seems to revolve round bio, chem, maths, chinese, GP, lectures, tutorials, teachers, training, scouts, church, yadda yadda yadda.

i need to take leave from life. impossible. one day i rest = one more day of extra hard work, its not a choice really, an obligation rather. why not just quit school now and die for for your country. good idea? who's with me? shit im going mad.

oh man and FUN O RAMA. FUN? i dont think so. it breaks people up and makes people go bonkers. but it really shows the true side of a person, how he/she works and stuff. bonkers and popsicles. impressive. i dont wish to get involved anymore. im immune! haha. you wanna do it that way? do loh. you dont wanna do this? dont do loh. i dont care. seriously, why should i? you can do whatever you like :) just dont step on my toes.

whoa, sounds so one-sided. guess im just an asshole bitching bout everything. but hey, thats what blogs are for eh?

RAMA means SHIT.

pissed inside, trying not to show it.

sam made noise at
12:05 PM

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Monday, January 23, 2006

theres so many things to post but i guess i dont have the time to do it right now.

but this one's just for my good frend luddy. haha thanks for being a wonderful frend. really appreciate your c&c. heres to the future national hockey star. cheers! :)

dang, theres so much work -_-

sam made noise at
10:30 PM

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Friday, January 20, 2006

no wonder people get tired of blogging. the days just keep getting greyer. at least its better now with the sun out. i feel stressed and relaxed at the same time. hate it. so much incomplete work. so much training. so little time.

its week 3 of hell. yes, i get your point. i get everything you do. sorry it was just all my fault. i really wished i could turn back the clock. sometimes i feel so exploded, stabbed so many times. i just wonder why i just cant die like that.

i totally forgot there was pe today. frantically went to find. finally i borrowed a shirt from mel and shorts from bev. totally gurl. my legs are nice :) yay i dont know who said that but thanks man. think luddy! haha gaby said u look from the bottom upwards slowly then say "eh how come so flat" ahaha. gosh paiseh man. i went to take a pic.

well, alot of things have been happening actually. just yesterday vishnu and suyin got a ride in the ambulance to nuh. quite unnecessary la i feel for the 995 call. but anyway, i feel good that i can put whatever i've learnt to use. yea, and those stupid paramedics actually took instructions from me. but the best part was "operation shelter" almost the whole team braved the rain with only 3 umbrellas to the hospital.

cool stuff. im doing bio research now. wow sounds cool but i guess ill never make it to this kinda thing in life. sometimes i really feel so useless, others are so good at this and me? bla bla bla. maybe i really am. but who cares? i dont.

oh well. feeling all confused now. anyways i uploaded some pics. the links here dont work urrgh.

im leaving.

bak kwa

shouts:

vish n suyin: get well soon!
sandy: keep up the good work at training!
gaby: thanks for the smiles :) love!
ft: we have a new khampetitor
marcus: happy bdae
jesse: will you survive? O$P$

sam made noise at
1:55 AM

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Monday, January 16, 2006

im getting increasingly tired and weak these days with fever and my stupid nose. sometimes its blocked and sometimes its just like a tap. urrgh! and my stupid throat is killing me. especially in the middle of the night. gosh, skipped two trainings already, tmr's gonna be the third. shit.

anyways, went to collect my phone on friday from wheelock nokia care. on wednesday when i sent it in they told me that all data will be LOST. gone forever. i was like O_O. so sad all my memories and bits and pieces all gone. managaed to quickly transfer 250 out of 658 contacts from my phone to sim card. shit yea.

but nothing was lost when i got it back! like whoohoo! heng ah, i still can treasure my memories and stuff. they just changes the keypad sensors i think cos my 7 8 9 became 1 2 3. but anyways im happy, thought it was a sign to let go of the past. after hearing pastor lynette's sermon, sounds kinda true. but sigh.

still so much homework to do.

sam made noise at
12:57 PM

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Thursday, January 12, 2006

now 2 weeks have almost gone by. its getting closer to the big exams. urrgh! school hasn't really been fun this few days. everybody Fungry, Fired and Fngry, some even Fick. like im catching a cold soon. the weather has been killing and i really look forward to seeing the sun.

oh well. really nothing much to say anymore cos all the fun has been taken away from me i guess. shit starts. been training in the rain. it sucks, totally sucks when water splashes into your face, mud runs up your legs and your clothes are just wet - inside and outside. but met new cool people who just joined the cross team. yea, but after two weeks, we'll see who's strong enough to stay. haha shit happens.

really stressed with everthing. school, scouts, cross yea thats hell lotsa shit already. i dont exactly have a life right now. the rain just depicts how im feeling - moody and gloomy. what else can topple a person further is failures. i guess failing is normal, but it really is so painful especially when you went all out and tried your best for something.

damn. bio essay, GP factsheets + articles, maths tutorial 23, chemistry alkenes tutorial.......... can stop for a day, please? poly the easy way out? its too late. im going to thailand, no same-same Singapore!

shoutouts to people whom i think wont read haha but anyway:

gaby: get well soon ok? sad to see you so 'dead' in class
zhong: mai paeng rai, im going there soon
nist: everyone's dear haha, im comin!
luddy: freaks on the run?
jang-guem: yea mama
yuan bing: hey best friend, tag
dennis: see you tommorow
vishnu: join the ICS
the world: good nite :)

im going mad. not about huh i dont even know what im typing. jiu ci ting bi.

2SC9 corner C-I-O!

sam made noise at
9:18 PM

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

yet another boring day. i still cant get over it. its been a really bad week in school. i havent completed most of the homework due yesterday. thought i'd finish but training killed everything. zero motivation and inspiration.

well, had ther firs venture exco mtg today, went quite well. then i skipped training -_- again. it was raining so hard man, but i guess thats where the pain really starts. went to do something else instead, not exactly fun. but oh well. oh well.

having rashes now man. real bad. fong mok. its like the more i scratch, the itchier it becomes and it spreads! oh my gosh. arrgh!

scratch

sam made noise at
2:31 PM

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Saturday, January 07, 2006

gosh. its been 3 days of school. i ahavent really got the time to blog bout the days. well, these days have just been school and training -_-

first day of school felt like living in the most boring world you ever lived. gosh, the mood's jus not there, everyone is nowhere. supp papers, ogls, absentees and what have you. urrgh. and popsicle selling. everything was so unprepared till the last minute. sighs. sometimes people need to get the job done instead.

second day wasn't any better. had four periods of ms tan. but i say it was useful haha. and then popsicles n more popsicles. the thing was approved luckily by mrs wilson and the ppt got thru well. much good feedback and sales was quite good i must say with the excellent PR skills of the gurls. oh well, but was kinda pissed at one pt of time. how dumb.

third day! yay everyones eating popsicles! haha, the 2sc9 influence. hmm. ms sng talked bout blogging today. but heck. haha, who cares about influence and controversy. oh well. this is a controversy haha.

these days have been real tiring. seeing all the other people at orientation makes me wanna retain. but then again, its 7 more months to pre-lims then im out! cant take the pain anymore. so shitty to drag yourselve thru the days of your life. oh well.

homeworks' piling up. im not starting any.

dang

sam made noise at
12:53 PM

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Monday, January 02, 2006

whats so happy about the New Year?
1. School starts, holidays end
2. Things are one year old
3. A new year begins leaving behind unaccomplishment
4. A LEVELS!
5. Im sure you can think of more....
Well that was the topic of the sermon today. Oh well.

been staying in church for 40 hours of prayer. kinda cool like a camp. haha really tired now still. havent been training also. think im gonna die next year with so much stuff on. well, heres an update.

On 29 Dec i met dennis (my head prefect who zao) in the morning then went to transport stuff to kah hern's house in the aft. really poor thing i just gave him a call and stormed into his house to put those dumb popsicle thingys we're gonna sell for fund-raising. dont really wanna say anything bout that.. so i just follow instructions haha. sorry kah hern!

On 30 Dec i had meeting in the morning to showcase scouting during the sec 1 registration. real cool, we did abseiling and cooking, stuff we dont usually do! Then had ventures nite at the guild house. the only highlight of the thing was when hong yi went to make his speech. gosh, creating abs on ppl's backs man.

quickly headed down to church after that for the 2am service. i led for awhile real cool man. well my first time in Thailand was much easier, somehow it felt hard on the 31st. Anyway, anyway.

New years day? oh before that on the previous note was also pastor B's farewell. urrgh, really painful to let someone close go. Thanks pastor for being my mentor and my friend. haha er herm, my ordination service ;)

now, new years day was just another day. after service we had sort of a shelling from kymn then treat from wee hwa at nydc. ate my fav boo boo again. haha. then went for GCM in barker. how boring. the only fun part was having dinner with wind, dennis, kevin, yangde and julian. dem funny when we talked about the stupid past of the scout group. haha real funny, but had to leave early for grandmas :(

now todays the killer. i just finished 1100 words. but FACT SHEETS! oh dear.
all the best to those taking supps tmr! :)

happy? NEW year -_-

sam made noise at
6:32 PM

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